“Brothers and sisters: I speak the truth in Christ, I do not lie; my conscience joins with the Holy Spirit in bearing me witness that I have great sorrow and constant anguish in my heart. For I could wish that I myself were accursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my own people, kindred according to the flesh. They are Israelites; theirs the adoption, the glory, the covenants, the giving of the law, the worship, and the promises; theirs the patriarchs, and from them, according to the flesh, is the Christ, who is over all, God blessed forever. Amen.” -Romans 9:1-5
God knocked Saul from his horse and forever changed him, so much so that he even changed his name to Paul. I can relate. Most people assume that what pains me most comes from the residual effects of my injuries, and while there are definitely physical pains, what troubles me the most is the same spiritual pain that tormented St. Paul. I have seen and felt the Lord's power, love, and mercy, wash over me, and I still feel His physical touch on my soul. I know that He has let me experience these things so I may tell my brothers and sisters about Him. While I have reached some, I know there are billions to go, and that is what causes such pain, that there are so many souls who still need to hear about and come to know the Lord. I was also shown, that I am not special or different from anyone else, so it is, that we should all feel the sorrow and anguish of St. Paul if there is even one soul who does not know Christ. My brothers and sisters, together with Christ we have so many more souls we must tell, and so little time to do it.